When I as asked to write my testimony my first thought was that I hadn't done anything good enough to write about, and that maybe I'm not a very good Christian. But after giving it some thought I realized that it's not about me and what I've done, but about Jesus, and what He's done for me.
I went from having nothing to say about my testimony, to having more to say than I can probably ever put on paper. He's brought me through so many things and changed me in so many ways that it's hard to know where to even start.
As a child, He installed a Godly grandmother in our home to make sure that an abusive stepfather couldn't do all the things he wanted to do with two little girls when he thought no one else was looking or wouldn't find out. A prayer warrior that made her presence known without ever having to say a word, when her own place in the household was in jeopardy.
I can tell you from personal experience, God does not ignore a praying grandmother. She made sure we always went to church with her and taught us to pray. Jesus' love, through her influence, has followed me all through my life. She grounded me in the bible. When I left home and went out on my own and like a lost sheep, began to lose sight of the Lord, He never lost sight of me.
I was His, and even though I made some terrible mistakes, He came and found me and brought me back to Him. He picked me up after every failed relationship, and every wrong decision. He gave me the one thing I needed most in the world: His unconditional love.
It seemed to me all my life that I could never please anyone, that I was a failure, but Jesus loved me and I've found out that He's all I need and all I want.
When I tried to kill myself with an overdose of drugs, He wouldn't let me go. When I couldn't find a job, He found one for me. When I thought I couldn't survive after watching my husband die of a massive heart-attack, he never left me.
All those times I sat in the floor and cried and screamed "why", He was there. Jesus understood all my questions and even though He didn't answer them all, He led me into a sweeter relationship with Him than I'd ever had.
When satan sent the demons of hell to torment me, my Protector never left my side and taught me to use His name to subdue my enemies and my fears. He delivered me from $30,000 in debt after my husband died and all within nine months, during which time I had no job.
I could go on and on. Do I have a testimony? YES! And it's all about Jesus Christ and what He's done for me and what He continues to do for me each and every day. Do I have a lot of things on this earth, no, but I'm storing up my riches in Heaven, and my King has seen to it that I've never been without.
I don't think I could ever phrase it any better than Anne Graham Lotz when she says, "I don't want to quit, I don't want sympathy, I don't even want a miracle....Just give me Jesus."
(A little story we discussed in Sunday School today.)
Two friends were walking through the desert.
During some point of the journey, they had an argument;
And the one friend slapped the other one in the face.
The one who got slapped was hurt,
But without saying anything, wrote in the sand:
"Today my best friend slapped me in the face."
They kept on walking until they found an oasis,
Where they decided to take a bath.
The one who had been slapped got stuck in the mire!
And started drowning, But the friend saved him.
After he recovered from the near drowning,
He wrote on a stone:
"Today my best friend saved my life."
The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him,
"After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now,
You write on a stone, why?"
The friend replied, "When someone hurts us,
We should write it down in sand, where winds of forgiveness
Can erase it away. But, when someone does good for us,
We must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it."
Learn to write your hurts in the sand,
And to carve your benefits in stone.